Blogging has never been something I've been interested in. I feel like I have a lot to say (just ask those around me), but I haven't exactly been an advocate about publicly sharing it. I'm not a big tweeter (yes I am still rocking that egg picture thanks for noticing), but I am a big writer. And in the last few years I let that fact become a shadow of me, not a part of me, where it belongs.
In fact as I write to you I find myself a little frustrated with myself (okay a lot). Angry, even. I had let a lot of myself go idle because it was difficult. Where was the room for creativity? I had a corporate career which took time away from my creative writing and the time I spent away from my desk was filled with friends, running, reading, or watching my favorite shows. My ME(r) time didn't include something I was passionate about.
One day I found a writing contest outside of work that I wanted to enter and was eager. I went home that day ready to begin that process, to get the laptop off of my chair, make a cup of tea, and move. A page came. A couple of sentences and a few spaces too many. That was it. Could I have forgotten how to do something that I thought was the very essence of me?
Weeks passed and I wrote a little bit of my original script a day. It got better, and I found myself at meetings thinking of dialogue (written eloquently on a crumpled napkin). The more time I dedicated to the project the better I was getting (an apology to whoever does napkin inventory at my office). I submitted my script by the due date, and though it wasn't my favorite thing I have written, it was mine, and it was the beginning of getting back to me.
STRIKE A BLOGGER POSE
Well a much wiser and more practical friend asked, “What is your blog going to be about?” The question overwhelmed me. I like to travel, but I definitely don’t do it enough. I exercise, but I’m not fully immersed in the workout world so that as a topic is out. And I like to EAT. I’m capitalizing this last one because, well, I’m fantastic at this and I think it should be announced to the world. And while I’m sure you will read about my adventures in cooking and how fantastic I am at waving a towel on a chair frantically in front of my fire alarm, I wouldn’t say that captures who I am. Actually....
I think what it comes down to is this. I am always moving. Chasing something to help quiet my overstimulated mind. I think the thing that I am chasing, and hilariously stumbling around, is the idea of balance. People have suggested me(r)ditation to me; (I try to see how many words I can stuff my name into, it’s a lot FYI,) that I take a deep breath and slow down in order to find clarity. This blog is my breath.
So back on the topic of topic. I think in order to fully discuss balance, I have to do my best in exploring many ideas. Most people I know have wanderlust, love food, and workout to keep themselves healthy. What is the perfect combination of things that equals balance? I think that answer will differ from me to you. And since this concept of balance is much more complicated and requires a mix of so many things, experiences, love, wisdom, and the ability to take a step back, to name a few, I am going to share with you my thoughts throughout my experiences. That's right, a type of live experience that we can only enjoy in this day and age of technology, folks! The hope is that together we can come closer to figuring out life's balancing act.
Thank you for allowing me the means to re-find myself. I'm looking forward to this adventure together.
-na MER ste-